While I was going through some rough days, there has always been some songs that kept me sane, and calm. May be you'll like them too.
Monday, January 25, 2010
I haven't blogged in a while, and I've missed it. Its been a couple of interesting days. I've had to challenge the direction I wanted my life to go, and doing so was an emotional roller coaster. In previous posts I mentioned it. About my previous feelings towards some of the classes I had been taking. About how I wish I could do something I really LOVED. About how I felt that life was decided for you.
All this time I thought that "doing what you love" was a stupid cliche that people refused to let go of. But its not stupid. Its real. And you know what? I'm taking steps to doing what I love. Its just that it required serious self-examination and time that I wasn't willing to offer. I just wanted to do what "seemed" best. But what "seemed" best was killing me. I hated it. I didn't feel like I was being true to myself. And now that I finally took the steps to changing my major, I find that being true to one's self is worth it. I feel free, and little scared at the same time. I'm not completely sure what I want for the end goal of my life...but things are looking up. I know the old worries about money and other things will rise, but now I SINCERELY believe that if you're doing something that completes you as a person, and you're saavy about career opportunities, money will follow.
This is a good feeling. And guess what? I'm happy.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Have you ever met someone that reminded you about a friend or associate you had? I sure you have. And the exact thing happened to me last night. It was remarkable. One of my friends and I were reminiscing over old high school memories and old high school friends. We eventually began talking about one infamous peer of ours and then BAM! I realized how this high school friend reminded me EXACTLY of a new college associate that I had made. It was the most ridiculous similarity. What these girls talk about, how they dress, their height, even their beauty and their mannerisms were parallel.
More so, what was interesting was how I remember reacting to them. Both of them have good hearts, but are too preoccupied with the small details of life. What is most striking is how both of them view the presence of men in their lives. I feel like these two ladies depend too much on physical relationships and admiration from the opposite sex. Now, I am in no position to judge, but I believe that is one of the worst hindrances of all. To place too much weight on the words on others.
Anyway, it is crazy how similar they are. And I am very tempted to introduce the two together, because I believe they would hit it off amazingly. Well, maybe too much of one thing or one person will drive me crazy. :/
Friday, January 8, 2010
As 2010 and the new semester starts, I was thinking about the amount of people who come into your life and after a short time, leave it again. That is especially something that I realize happens frequently in college. The bonds one may make with classmates or people one interacts with on a daily basis can be quickly broken or dissolved. And as solemn as that sounds, it isn't necessarily a bad thing. One thing that I'm realizing is that college life can be very transient, especially on a campus as big as this one. Everyone is moving one way or another, living their lives in the way they believe is most satisfactory, and trying to acquire a good education in the meantime.
That's a pretty big difference from high school. Instead of beginning and ending the year with a group of people you probably have known since middle school or even elementary school, you begin and end a semester with people you have never known and probably will never see again.
I'm finding that I don't really know how to react to this change of relationships. Today I was in a new class, and I was thinking of all my former classmates that I slowly began to miss. It was weird. I felt foreign, uncomfortable. And it was a surprising reaction because I always pride myself in being a person who thrives on new experiences and new relationships.
Well, I wasn't ready for that one. And as excited I am about meeting new people, I find myself more apprehensive than last semester. I guess that's what you get for feeling "comfortable".
I leave you with another fabulous photo from my favorite photodiarist
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
...Ahhh! The smell of a new semester! I don't know what this semester is going to hold, but I do know one thing: I don't think I'm ready just yet. The break went by so quickly, that I don't think I prepared my mind for the mental challenges that this new academic semester holds. And to be honest, I'm pretty nervous about it. The idea that "the choices you make at this moment will affect the rest of your life"...is a very daunting and scary one.
But meanwhile tackling the semester is slowly taking over my mind, I find comfort in inspiring photography. Especially this website: http://photodiarist.typepad.com/thephotodiarist/
Eventually, I too want to become a photodiarist. But one that captures the unique moments and everyday life of the students at my University.
I must give a disclaimer though. I am by no means a fabulous photographer. In fact, I am quite the novice. However, maybe following this pursuit will be the thing I need to calm my mind down.
We'll see. Maybe I should get a camera first.