Thursday, February 11, 2010
Find More Enjoyment in Being Alone
I know, I know, it sounds kind of sad, but that is something I really need to to. You see, I am naturally a person that thrives on being surrounded by other people. I feel excited and happy when I'm talking to different people, sharing stories, experiences, and laughs. That is one of the things that makes me most happy. However, I feel that because of this natural tendency, I am giving up an essential part of my personal growth. I sincerely feel that I've reached a stand still in my life. I want to see a definitive change in my behavior, appearance, or ideology, and I'm not seeing that just yet. I must admit that my desire to "change" may just be a sociological response to our media's (society's) idea that college should be a "life-changing" experience. Consequently, because I have been told so much that college will "change" me; when I do not seeing that initial change, I start to get worried.
I just want to feel less dependent of social relationships with others. I want to feel secure and strong as a singular individual. But I really don't know how to do it. I do not want to seem distant or moody, I just want to grow my intellect rather than my social circle. Additionally, I am quite a bold person, so being by myself in different settings has never really been a problem. I want to open my eyes to new people. I have become much too relaxed with my social circle. It is time for a little chaos. I think that I will attend more academic programs by myself, I want to gain a larger global understanding of things around me. Well, that is all that is on my mind right now. What do you suggest?